Joie de vivre

Changes...

2010-03-24T00:30:00.002-05:00

So, my office has a demon. A demon that is trying to make my life more miserable. I was almost defeated, I was badly hurt, and now, I recovered, with more power in me.

I am always not strong enough, to protect myself. I know I am stressful, I know I am angry, I know I am upset, but I promise myself that I'll be O.K again after swimming (p/s: I seem to have the ability to leave all the unhappiness behind in the water, somehow). I fail sometimes. I am still showing faces, I am still complaining. >.< (the part of me that I hate now)

Anyway, I am doing things to make myself happy so that I can make others happy. Other than the habitual ways that I have been doing eg. window shopping, etc., I pick up new ways like reading Bible, listening Hillsongs...I am actually pretty looking forward to Sunday church. These are the things that never fails to calm me down. At least it eases my worries and hatred and I am able to forgive people. A little amazing...

Nevertheless, planning on trips is what excites me the most. I think travelling out of Malaysia is necessary as stucking in Malaysia all the time will make one a so-typical-kind of malaysian, which is....Bad!!I do not want to lose/forget the beautiful values that I learnt when I was over the other side of the globe. Currently eyeing on Thailand, Singapore, and Taiwan...trying to make it realize within this year.

Ok, so, that's it. :)

~xoxo~

March?!?!?!

2010-03-01T23:27:00.002-06:00

Time no longer flies, I think it evaporates everyday just like that.
Apparently, February is a lovely month. The only month where holidays superseded working days most of the time. I felt as if I rested for the whole February.
Cny just past like that. It was definitely an eventful new year. I had a lot of fun. There were unhappy things too occurred but I am glad that everything is over and everything is back to normal. This Cny has way more fireworks around than any other previous years that I had celebrated. Malaysians are getting richer I guess.
Now, I am back to work again. Life is getting more and more peaceful. Things are getting more and more routinized somehow. There's no perks in life currently. But, I have a few goals that I want to try to achieve. At certain point, I wonder if money is really everything? Getting richer= being happier?

It's March already.
It's the fourth year since I become the luckiest girl in the world.
Happy Anniversary!!

If God can hear me now, I ask for hopes. Please create hopes in our lives, in everybody's lives.

~xoxo~

Sunday with Couz

2010-02-07T06:08:00.002-06:00

So, my hh left peninsular malaysia for CNY. 2 weeks. 14 days. I just have to survive the first 4 days and I'll be okay. My lil couz is nice enough to travel all the way from Semenyih to my place to spend a day with me to ease my loneliness, and I do appreciate. We had great time shopping at Ikea and The Curve, and I thought this is good enough to jump start my 4 days of battle.

And so, I came home. The ugly cute monkey is there to make me smile. He is worth RM600 by the way. I thought I should clear the fridge and cook everything in it before I balik kampung. I should have known that I need to be slow with my cooking skill and it needs some warm-up as it's a lil rusty by now. I didn't. It was the worst nightmare. ToFu+garlic= burnt 'a lil'. then + chicken= chicken still 'a lil' frozen. then + fishcakes +chili padi. Note that they're all being cooked together(my latest practice of instant way of cooking). And now this is going to be my Mon, Tue, Wed lunchbox. *lost appetite*. I am not even sure if DaTow is going to eat if I serve him that.

Conclusion, my cooking is not always this bad. I just need some warm up time to brush up my cooking.

Conclusion, human are dependent. No matter who you're, you will still have something that you rely on so much so that you can't almost live without. I tried not to, and I failed. I am trying again...

~xoxo~

By Bill Gates

2010-02-05T03:08:00.001-06:00

~Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one~

LOL

~xoxo~

January

2010-02-04T23:17:00.002-06:00

January...Well, it's already February. I wonder what have I been doing....or what have I achieve so far.

Everyday is like racing with time.
Wake up-work-go home-swim-dinner-sleep.
I started to feel bored with this routine already.
It's only six months.
It's only six months.
Within the six months,
I work and I realize that I need to gain more accounting knowledge.
The more I work then, I now postpone my ACCA to an unknown date.
The more I work then, I am not sure what I actually want.
I wonder do many people actually know what they want in life.

Also,
Within the six months,
my cooking got so bad and worse.
I failed in my own assessment of being a good girlfriend.
I haven't been doing things that I suppose to do.
I haven't been doing things that I really like to do.
I am also not sure if I have done enough for my family to make it a happy one.

What else?

I wish there's angel somewhere.

~xoxo~

Two is better than One

2010-01-07T08:08:00.002-06:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILS6ULfhIhI

wink

2010-01-07T07:40:00.002-06:00

haha...today is not the happiest day.
But, it is definitely one of my happiest day.
Because....
I can finally swim underwater. *claps*
=)
I can also sit underwater already. *more clapss*
although my breathing is not good yet.
It's so amazing.
Like all of a sudden, you just know how to do it.
I tried swimming underwater for like a month already. My dear tried his very best to teach me and force me go underwater. But I just can't.
Today, at that moment, I just can. I don't know how. I'm just able to do it. It's so cool!
The moment I did it, I feel myself so amazing.
To some people, this might not be something so big to talk about.
But to me, yes it is!
Imagine like a kid who knows nothing, I pick up swimming slowly.
My dear knows how much hardship I went through to be able to swim like a fish.
I used to have phobia swimming in the deep water.
I can't believe I can do it now. That's why I appreciate swimming more than anyone else. I learnt it the hard way. lol...my devil coach!
Thanks to my devil coach also, I learn swimming, I learn cantonese, I learn to learn from mistakes. I learn so many things from him.
How do I live without you, my evil devil?

~xoxo~

First Day of 2010

2009-12-31T21:49:00.002-06:00

Good day 2010!!!!!
=)

My new year eve was a good one. No hassle, no crowds, no police, no jam. What can be better than watching fireworks and enjoying the breeze at the balcony with loved one? I don't have a full view of the ever-amazing fireworks, but having surrounded by all fireworks from different locations in the city was just awesome. I can hear screaming of joy of celebration, I saw many people at the balcony too, I heard laughter....... the atmosphere was just great to step into a new year. =)

Today, newspaper is full of photos of fireworks and celebrations in different regions of the world. There're also many parts of the newspaper writing about people's wishes and new year resolutions. There're a few that I deemed meaningful enough to be included in this page of my blog.

~German writer and playwright Carl Zuckmeyer :" Half of life is luck; the other half is discipline- and that's the important half, for without discipline you wouldn't know what to do with luck."

~Young Millionaire Ray Ling:" Most of the time, successful people aren't the cleverest people, but they are the ones who carry through everything to the end. They never give up. They believe that the rain will stop, and the sun will rise and a better tomorrow will come."

~Petronas's wishing page:-

Some people hate
Some people love

Some people are procrastinators
Some people act now

Some people love to point fingers
Some people love to extend their hands

Some people question every answer
Some people have an answer to every question

Some people hate to lose an argument
Some people love to win hearts

Some people want a change
Some people want to be the change

Some people are blind except to their own color
Some people are color blind

Some people are proud to belong to their race
Some people take pride in belonging to the human race

This New Year, it is not about who is perfect and who is not. It is about sharing One Legacy, One Destiny, 1Malaysia. Because to build a great nation we must all learn to see perfections in the imperfections.

Key point: See perfections in the imperfections**

This is a special one:-

Colimnist and TV personality Xandria Ooi: My resolution is to continue my recently acquired habit of waking up early so that I can get more things done during the day." (Her fiancee reads books on successful people and found out their common trait is waking up early every day)

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A self-reflection:

In this new year, I realized that nothing matters more than, nothing can satisfy me more than, nothing is more important than, nothing can make me happy more than, the happiness of people I love. As long as all my family members are good, as long as all my friends are doing well, I am one happy one.

Wonderful 2010, people!!

~xoxo~

29 December 2009

2009-12-28T23:28:00.003-06:00

So close to another year...

I was driving and listening to RedFM this morning to work.
JD and Dilly raised a question as to what year is next year in chinese calendar.
I lost count.
They said it's.....TIGER!!! lol
My year I didn't know that.
That also remind me of this being the third time of tiger year= me turning 24 years old. :(
Then, I thought of long long time ago, when I was 12 years old (2nd tiger year), I actually told my besties that I am going to get married with 'that person' in the next tiger year (aka 2010). lol....It feels like I just told them last week, that I still remember how each of them teased me on that.
Well well, we were naive back then. (lol, speaking of that, 'that person' is really going to get married next year, 'wow')
Haha, I am Not single, Not yet a married.
Cool?

~xoxo~

Merry Christmas!!!

2009-12-25T03:33:00.002-06:00

I have never appreciate holidays as much as I do now.
December is great, holidays lining up.
February 2010 is going to be even better, my off days are more than working days. :)...
Time passes fast everyday. I try to slow down the pace whenever I can.
I do not like hectic life. I'll get sick.
I am very curious about other people's life, I want to know how others lead their lives, be it teenagers, working single/ married adults, or old folks. Well, I guess I just develop this hobby in Malaysia. People here are just too interesting to know.
I am finally one size bigger (Technically shoulder), due to frequent swimming session. Ever since I increase my daily food consumption, I always have problem thinking what to eat. Eating is tiring. Deciding what to eat is worse. I miss those times when 3-in-1 meal came into practice. Less brain cells died.
My dear loves Apple; Apple has been treating him very well. xD
Another year is coming, I am scared.
Too many uncertainties lying ahead. Intimidating. Overwhelming.
God Bless!
Happy Birthday Jesus!!!

~xoxo~

December is coming to an end

2009-12-20T07:47:00.002-06:00

Last month of year 2009~~~

After 2 days of working OT till midnight,
I am finally sick, (again).
Flu, coughing, headache.
Weak ass I am.

New year resolution:

Be healthy, be strong, and be smart.

~xoxo~

Just for Fun

2009-12-13T00:06:00.002-06:00

In today's The Star, there's this Indian astrologer putting a column about New Year prospect according to Indian astrology.

So,

Taurus (me)- Expansion in professional life and improvement or change in work is likely to take place in the first six months. Need to be careful in money matters as problems are indicated and if you are unmarried, you can expect wedded bliss. (wow~~) lol.

Aries (11)- The first quarter of the year will be challenging and financial transitions should be done with caution. The later part of the year is more encouraging with a possible promotion in career. (Cool!)

Okey, time to get back to work....

:)...

~xoxo~

God is Great

2009-12-07T08:00:00.004-06:00

What more can I say...
God is always nicer to me.
In my previous blog, I was just saying that I wish to make a new friend, or just catching up with my old friends is good enough.
da da....
I went home, and I managed to have a small gathering with my old friends and it was good.
Now, I have a new friend, Alyssa, who is my new housemate. We kinda clicked, and I am no longer lonely. ;)...
How Great!!!
God is awesome! I have all wonderful people around. How can I not be grateful?
I am studying ACCA and I got my colleagues to be my tutors.
It's just the beginning but I can already feel the tension.
I hope my money is not wasted at the end of the day.
Please don't let me give up, people.
Btw, New moon is disappointing. Edward Cullen is disappointing too. I do not heart him anymore.
I heart my life.

~xoxo~

Sympathy

2009-12-03T23:32:00.002-06:00

Another good day to fall deep into the bed and never get up.
The second day I brought my lunch box to work.
CFO saw me eating lunch in the office by myself, a few times already.
He looked puzzled, and sympathized with me.
Well,
I don't need sympathy.
Eating in the office of food I cooked last night alone wasn't pitiful.
and It's not like I don't click with my colleagues.
I just don't like to eat out.
I love spending this one hour time eating in front of my laptop and checking out FB, friends' blogs, news....etc.
This is what I like.
I don't need sympathy. I become so 'cham' in his eyes.
CFO is nice enough. We had a little chit chat. He asks about my living condition now and wants me to keep him posted about my 'welfare'.
I do admire him, just like how I admired all my add. Math teachers last time in the school.
They have something in common.
They are all very very wise.
They just seemed like there's no problem in the world that can take them down.
Whatever they say is the absolute correct answer.
I do believe wisdom builds from experiences.
Am I gonna be as wise after 20 years?
I do admire wise people.

~xoxo~

♥ 3rd ♥

2009-12-02T23:20:00.002-06:00

To whoever it may concern,

Do not worry about me. I can take good care of myself.
I might be home alone a lot.
But I enjoy waiting for you to come home.
I might have to cook and eat dinner myself.
But I love knowing that you like the rice box that I prepare for you.
I might not be able to spend much time with you in the weekend.
But seeing you after work is all I am looking forward to all the time.

I know the above statements are true.
AND, I am absolutely sure that you have the same statements to declare.

~I love you~

~Happy 45th-Month-Anniversary to Ed&Kel~

~xoxo~

Having a Bad Day

2009-12-01T23:07:00.002-06:00

I am having a bad day.
I had very low quality of long hours sleep last night, if you know what I mean, then you know how I feel.
Dizziness strikes again, as usual. I don't even feel like complaining about it anymore.
Works are piling up, I am just not effective today, acting slowly like a tortoise.
The Taiwan drama 'easy fortune happy life' made me cry last night, that I forgot to watch This Is Howie Do It. (Yes, I watch TV a lot recently)
The only thing that I should be happy about today is that, I brought my own-cooked lunch box to work. I am happy that I don't have to eat out, kinda sick of eating out already. But, I am still missing Wong Kok. Missing their dessert badly.
Time goes by fast.
Can it be faster?

~xoxo~

Monday Biru

2009-11-30T08:05:00.002-06:00

hik hiks....

Getting back to work after a long weekend is never easy.

The atmosphere in the office is just so different with boss around. Everyone is always in what I called an 'a-con' (aka alert condition). One thing I am sure, there is definitely a positive correlation between the availability of boss in the office and the workload. =)

My past weekend was a great one. I enjoyed myself being around my family, breakfast and the long chit-chat with couzs, gossiping with my 'long-lost' friends, 'taming' my precious doggy Keai......Simply awesome!!

I just had my favorite vienna brownies. Sooo delicious, just irresistible! I am feeling bad now, for not saving half of the cake for my dearest, knowing that there's only one piece at home. I am vulnerable when it comes to vienna brownies. Opps...:)

I feel very motivating as all my loved ones are being very supportive of me taking ACCA exam. I know it's not easy to work and at the same time study for the exam on my own, but I decided to give it a try.

You know what,

Every morning, his sleeping face makes me feel blissful.

Every morning, I'll look far into the sky and find the first sun light that shine into my eyes as I drive, feeling the beginning of a good day accompanying by good songs.

Every morning, the first thing I do once I reach my office is, reading newspapers.

Not every morning but this morning, I thought of the beautiful white snow and the killing cold in Ames, Iowa that I left behind.

Once Cyclone, Forever a Cyclone

~xoxo~

MIA

2009-11-25T23:22:00.002-06:00

The longest MIA ever, I guess I am tired.
I have been busy at work. Like I said before, I can finally concentrate on my work. Yes, I am.
I have more worries now. Life is fair, when you have everything you want, there's just things that popped up which make you think if you really want everything that you have now.
My life has been devoted to work and family, which leaves me no room for friends. I wish I can make a new friend now. Or, I should catch up with all my old friends. I am not a good friend to begin with. I'm sorry.
My November budget had all gone to cosmetics. I am already acting like a 'aunty', I do not want to look like one.
My December budget will be used for reference books. I know, I can't believe I am putting books before my new year clothings. But, I have to. I am planning to take ACCA exam next June, which means I'll be spending my December pay for class registration and books. How smart!
I have to wait till January to do shopping, which also means that I have not purchase any clothings in 3 months time. That's a WoW to me.
I started cooking already. I can never master cooking using fire. It's just so hard to control. Then you know how my dishes turned out to be, which also means that somebody is always in trouble.
I eat a lot more lately. My daily food intake increases so much. I want to put on a little weight so that people don't complain that I am not healthy.
Tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji= public holiday. I have a 3-day weekend. I am going home.
:)....

~xoxo~

Mr. Police, TQ

2009-11-07T06:19:00.002-06:00

So, my Saturday started out perfectly. After being forbidden of going home this weekend, I have devoted my weekend to work.

I went swimming once I woke up. It was great! The pool is as good as I look down from my room's window. I got some sunshine, a little tan, but I think I love it, after so long of hiding in the office and never able to meet sunshine.

Then, I was happily sending my hun to work (I drove!!!). Well, I seldom have the chance to drive him, but today, he handed me the car key and let me drive. And well, the overexcited me then...got....ticket from Mr. P, for-------------> s.p.e.e.d.i.n.g!!! Me!!!! S.p.e.e.d.i.n.g!!! The speend limit is 80km/h and I was at 93km/h. I wasn't given a chance by the fierce Mr. P. Great! Now I got my first speeding ticket in my life. Great! and now, I have to fast for two weeks and no good food for the next two weekends. Stupid!!

I am at Starbucks for three hours already, doing work and trying to appreciate my fellow Malaysians. Another three hours to go......:)......

~xoxo~

Auntyhood

2009-11-05T00:01:00.002-06:00

I think I am entering A.U.N.T.Y.H.O.O.D!!!!

I am longwinded, regardless talking to family, boyfriend, friends, colleagues, bankers, or lawyers.
I have only very short term memory, I have to write down in order to remember something.
I do not wear fancy stuffs anymore everyday, simple outfit is what I am confortable in. (I wear glasses so often now :( )
I shop groceries most of the time. Jusco, Giant, Tesco are where I will be at instead of forever 21, topshop, miss selfridge, bla bla bla...
I compare prices a lot. I even look out for coupon saver in the newspapers for groceries.
I am lazy to use body lotion.
I carry an umbrella everywhere I go.

Damn!

I am soooooooooo.....aunty!!!!!!

:(

~xoxo~

Awesomeness

2009-11-03T06:21:00.002-06:00

These two weeks past so fast! My everyday starts very early and ends late at night. The only time I rest is the sleeping time. The rest of my day has been hectic. I drive a lot these days, feeling like a pro here in KL already. lol...

I truly love this place that I am staying. The night view is gorgeous. The pool is awesome that every time I look out from my window, I just want to jump in. The gym is just nice for me. Everything is perfect here. Too bad, I haven't have the time to go and enjoy all of these yet.

Work is busy; life is hectic.

But,

I just couldn't describe how blissful I feel everyday.

I just simply......l.o.v.e...y.o.u....!!!

*Happy 44th-Month-Anniversary to Ed&Kel*

We can make it!

~xoxo~

A New Beginning

2009-10-31T22:17:00.002-05:00

:)

Today is special. It is his first day of work. (I wish him all the best and have lotsa fun and friends there).

Remember I was having that bad moment losing my 'dreamed' room, a better one I gained. How amazing! It is really funny how things turn out to be. You lose one good one, but you might get a better one, if not the best one. I am totally satisfied with my current condition. I don't think I have anymore things to ask for. I love love love my life!!!!! :)...

I am VERY excited to move in today and start decorating the place. :)...

~xoxo~

Friday~~

2009-10-30T00:21:00.002-05:00

It's Friday!!!

I am exceptionally happy today...

because...

it's a friday.

big boss not around.

I don't have to drive to work.

I don't have to drive home after work.

I'm done with my blood test aka I can eat good food tonight.

I am done with the first round of moving.

I am staying in Kajang.

I will have savings soon.

I know tomorrow will be a good day.

~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @ ~ @

I think I am too high now, a horror movie will probably calm me down.

I feel like munching on some unhealthy junk food now.

:)

~xoxo~

Where is it going?

2009-10-28T06:11:00.002-05:00

I have been missing in action for like a week already. It's not that I have nothing to write or my life has nothing interesting to tell anymore. It is just the opposite! So many things happened everyday, I am busy!

So, I went to see doctor, again, last Friday, due to dizziness (again?!?!?!), but not indigestion. Doctor said it's 'mostly' due to ear imbalance. And I got my first MC ever, left my office at 2.30pm. I need to go back for blood test this Friday, and I haven't even finish half of the medicine she gave (I never remember to take on time). I hope the blood test would not deliver any bad news to me though.

Over the weekend, I was too busy hunting for rooms and furniture. Things were going well! I thought I found an idea place for me and for him. I felt clicked to my supposed-to-be new housemates. Well, things change all the time and people can behave very differently. My dreamed room is gone, and I do not know what to do anymore. You know, when you are hoping, thinking, and expecting things to be like that, all the time in your mind in your sleep, and it closed to realizing but gone forever, imagine that and you know how I felt last night. I was so so excited shopping for furniture and drafting for the new room. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore.

Work is starting to drain me up. The doctor actually asked me the other day if I feel stressful from work, and I said I am not. Thinking of it, it might be the case that I am actually overwhelmed by the stress of work and life that I did not actually know, just like the last time when I cannot even tell if I am hungry or not. Well, strange enough! I am actually hoping that my business concept(came to my mind when I was sleeping or when I first woke up the other day) will be realized soon enough, then, I will be at least know what I am doing and loving what I do. Now, I think my mind is hardly resting these days even when my body is. If not, I wouldn't have had the supposed-to-be-future room all designed and decor, and even, came up with a business concept. -_-'''

The day I got my second pay, I think I truly deserve a good gift.

~xoxo~

Not Bad Not the Worst

2009-10-21T09:38:00.020-05:00

The list of more than 10 premises (house, condo, apartment) were all rented out.

I do not have any luck today.

I know

Even if I were to be rendered at a unsatisfactory living condition, I am not alone.

These two months have given me a lot of life lesson.

The person I met, the things I have gone through.

I learnt.

Even though I am not alone, I will always remember everything that I have learnt in these two months.

I shall not take him for granted.

I shall be tougher and smarter.

And

I will be more positive, for sure.

The only difference then, is, my life will be complete.

My heart stays where it supposed to be.

My mind does not go haywire from time to time.

I can concentrate better in what I do.

I am

Good.

~xoxo~

New Updates 2

2009-10-20T09:39:00.002-05:00

I am busy recently......

I went back home two weeks consecutively.

I go to gym every alternate day.

I am looking for place to move. Loving the studio apartment, but price is too attractive. I do not keen to stay with 5/6 people in a house. 3 housemates might be the most I can tolerate. It's so hard to find a room in two weeks time.

I have more phone calls this week from home. Grandparents got a shock seeing me after 3 weeks not around. They think I got thinner and thinner. Now, I am reporting myself everyday what I have for lunch and dinner for the four folks at home. Grandpa even called me at my lunch time to see if I have taken my meal. -_-'''

I cursed and I am still cursing Naza Service Centre for their POOR, VERY POOR after sales service. I love my car, but I'll always curse Naza!!!

It's fun to have CFO sitting in the office for 6 weeks.

Time pass very fast when I am busy.

~xoxo~

The Best Night of Mine

2009-10-16T00:12:00.002-05:00

So, I went to True Fitness last night. It was wonderful~~~ I was so worried that I couldn't find the place, but it was seriously easy. (When I said easy, it means it is just right beside, that kind that you can see the building clearly already...lol)

The Malay guy, so called my fitness consultant, is a long winded guy. He told me he enjoys talking to me, duh, I told him not to waste my time. Anyway, He showed me around, the atmosphere is great, of course much better than ISU Rec. By the end of the tour, I told him I don't have any sense of direction (as I can't find the ladies locker room anymore), he was like "so we were just wasting our time huh?"!!! Anyway, that whole chit chat thingy took me almost two hours.

The best part was the 'body composition analysis' they did on me as one of the registration process. Yes, I am confirmed that I lose weight already. To my surprised, the % of my body fat is normal!!!But, I am VERY VERY lack of protein!!! And I have weak arm which they called 'undeveloped'!!! And, the analyst told me that I have very high metabolism rate(1328.6 kcal). Even with me sleeping also, I can burn 1328.6 kcal (That's what I said). Hahaha...My overall fitness score is 70 points. Not bad at all!! He asked me to gain some weight back to 50KG, then I'll have flying fitness result. lol....Those guys are funny!!!

I just love love love True Fitness. It makes my day. I feel happy being there. So, on the way driving home last night, I already made up my mind to find a place to stay where it doesn't require me to pay RM150/ month for that goddamn parking fees. Then, I can happily enjoy myself there at True Fitness. GREAT~~~~

~xoxo~

Rain

2009-10-14T07:19:00.002-05:00

It is moody the whole day. Rain comes and goes...

The thunder woke me up twice last night in the middle of my beauty sleep.

I had good meals yesterday and went to bed at 10pm, my dizziness is gone today. I am healthy!

I don't feel safe in my car just because I have yet to do my first car service regardless of the overdue mileage. My poor car~~~

My lunch is getting more and more expensive, the price i pay for a good health? or does it matter at all? damn old man cheated my money for two days already.

The happiest thing of today, I called True Fitness, and I am going tomorrow right after work!!!!! I am so excited!

~xoxo~

Pictures

2009-10-13T07:56:00.005-05:00

So, if anyone were to wonder the level of tolerance my stomach has for oily food, here are examples of food that can cause indigestion:

Semenyih famous Ikan Bakar (RM20!!!)

The very spicy kangkung

They look fine. They're yummy. My tummy needs more adjustment.

Malaysia wonders:

Toy Freak

All kinds of toy collection

The clinic where I was born 23 years ago:

Batu Pahat

ok, the lovey dovey:

And....

It's not yet mid of the month.

My first salary is...........a.l.m.o.s.t............g.o.n.e................

How am I going to survive for the rest of the month??????

:(...

~xoxo~

What a Weekend

2009-10-12T06:13:00.002-05:00

I had a great weekend home. It is always good to be around with parents as they'll do anything just to make you happy. I brought my parents out for a delicious dinner, foot the bill for the first time using my first salary. How proud!

Sunday was the longest day ever. I salute myself for my patience and determination yesterday. Forget about the long journey and the horrible traffic, it was good to go into Nottingham. At least I know my little couz's condition in that outskirt area. Although things are hard there, I believe my little couz can fight through her way and walk out proudly eventually.

Anyway, thanks to my sensitive stomach and poor digestive system, I'll have to be more careful eating out from today onwards. A delicious ikan bakar and kangkung turned out to be a disaster to me. Thank God my dizziness stroke me after I reached my car park. I can tell no one my condition last night. It was horrible!!! Things were spinning, I can't stand, and I can only sit in my bathroom waiting to throw out again and again. My limbs were shivering and weak. I went to doctor eventually and, indigestion of oily food was what he said. I wasn't listening hard of what he said. I just want to collect my medicine and collapse into bed. Anyway, I think my brain has more problem than my stomach as I went to work today regardless of the doctor's mc. I think I was eager to clear the piles of files on my table which made me lost my normal human sense.

Ask me if I am healthy now? Better, but not yet. Dizziness is still visiting me from time to time. Worst thing was, I lost 3 KGs after I came back to Malaysia, which is closed to, but not yet 2 months time. I hope the weighting machine wasn't accurate. I really cannot wait to go to the fitness centre.

I think it's snowing in Ames already. Snow comes earlier and earlier every year. I miss walking in the snow with my dear....I miss the snowing Ames...I think I miss everybody in Ames.

~xoxo~

Life is Coming Back to Me

2009-10-09T00:30:00.002-05:00

Yes, my life is coming back to me.
I'm happy, but I'm too tired.
My brain is too overpacked with to-do list and numbers.
I missed his bb match, the first game I missed in these 3 years 7 months. I don't feel good about it.
I'm going home today.
I am going to have a good break, with no traffic lights, no traffic jam, no computer, and no parking problem. I need to stay away from the abovementioned 4 things for a while.

~xoxo~

I Love You God

2009-10-07T09:07:00.002-05:00

STAY POSITIVE AND YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU HOPE FOR... :)...

A lot of things happened today:

10 hours of work is nothing anymore.

I have the biggest surprise in my life.

I experienced that kind of crying-so-badly, but due to happiness. I feel relieved altogether. My heart instantly patched back with stronger beats.

I cannot describe anything anymore right now.

I will have a good sleep tonight.

p/s: I did not hit any red lights AGAIN on the way back from work. I am the luckiest person today. I guess God was actually hinting me something already before I know the good news. xD!

Have a safe flight back home, my 11!!! :)...

~xoxo~

Zombie

2009-10-07T00:01:00.002-05:00

I had a bad night.

I woke up 4 times, two times were because of nightmares, one time was just random at 6.05am, then 7am. I had one good dream too. I dreamed of my 'mow mow'. I brought him home, with a lovely bed for him.

So, it's not surprising that I look like zombie when I stared myself in the mirror. Luckily, make up does wonders. I am looking fine now. :)...

I was lucky this morning as I did not hit any red lights AT ALL, all the way from Damansara to Mont' Kiara, can anyone believe that? How cool!

~xoxo~

Stay Positive

2009-10-06T08:14:00.002-05:00

People think I am sad today. Early morning before I stepped out of my house, my housemate said I must be very sad as days being alone started again. In the office, my manager is kind enough to let me go 'earlier' regardless of the heavy workload she has. I already foreseen today, I already prepared for this mood. I had a lot of monologue in my mind today, while I was walking, driving, working, eating, every time everywhere, to the extent that I think I am going insane. I wanted to shout out loud so badly, or go for a long jog that can drain up all the energy in my body.

Some people like to have exciting life with ups and downs; some like peaceful, or monotonous life. I hate the feeling of reaching high high to the heaven and one moment, drop till the deep end of the hell.

Anyway......

I believe everything happens for a reason. Remember I said God has always been nicer to me? If this is a means to an end, I will accept it. There'll be surprises along the way.

It's My Life!!!

p/s: went to visit my 'mow mow' today with my 11, can never describe my happiness at that moment. Now, I left my heart here and there, but not yet with me.

~xoxo~

Sunway Pyramid

2009-10-04T01:17:00.002-05:00

I found my favorite brand Forever 21 here in Sunway Pyramid. I compared the price, it is in general RM20 per piece more expensive than you can get in the States. BUT, they're really nice!!! Forever 21 is like a heaven to me. I want to try everything and I want to buy everything. The best things about Forever 21 in Malaysia are, all the clothing and accessories are tidily displayed, and, the queue outside the fitting room is never long. I have decided to bring one item from Forever 21 home every month I get my pay. *tee hee*

One strange thing is, the XS size from some brands is still loose on me. I deem myself to be a normal size among Malaysia ladies, there're way too many much skinnier and bonnier ladies around. I wonder where they shop for their clothing. I started to think that it might be the clothing itself that supposed to fit loosely like that.*I don't know* All I know is that I need to get back to gym ASAP to feel lean again.

I am sitting in front of this pianist performing here. Her songs can kill. The songs she played are always able to grasp people's attention, of all races and all ages, to stop and enjoy the moment with her. My emotion can just swing with the melody of her songs. She looks so happy. She is definitely the one that enjoying the most of her work. She is very attractive at this moment.

Looking at my surrounding, I am sure that Sunday shopping is definitely filled with love. Family love, couple love, friendship love is everywhere to be seen. All this moment needs to be cherished as it will be gone too soon before one even realized.

~xoxo~

A DIfferent Weekend

2009-10-03T19:41:00.003-05:00

This weekend is very different to me.

I woke up earlier than weekdays.

I left home earlier than weekdays.

I reached home much later than weekdays.

I am always the first 'customer' to Sunway Pyramid.

8 hours pass so fast than they usually are at work.

I do my work in Sunway Pyramid before all the shops open.

The first 4 hours I used to do my work, the other 4 hours I shop, and I am having fun checking on Malaysia fashion style.

I am not alone this weekend.

This is the l.a.s.t weekend...

~xoxo~

43 Months

2009-10-02T20:32:00.003-05:00

Oct 3rd!!!

Last night was a nightmare! Well, not exactly the whole night, but part of it (I'm referring to my OT at work l-a-h). Things popped up at the very last minute, and I was fighting the battle together with my manager. A Friday night, everyone left, even my CFO left earlier than me, can you believe? I am always the first one to leave, on time, in my office. LoL...

I felt so bad for making him waited for me at my apartment playground for two hours, not to say my initial plan of making the night special for our anniversary. I was rushing and rushing and rushing, till I reached him and hold his hands. Bad day moment just vanished like that! He didn't complain at all, and just brought me for dinner (he knows I'm starving). I told you I have the best man anyone could find in this world. *proud*

Life is full of surprises, isn't it? One day he is far far away from me, the other day he is just sleeping beside me.

My life is really really filled with surprises, every single day!!!

~Happy 43rd-Month-Anniversary to Ed&Kel~

~xoxo~

Wednesday and Thursday

2009-10-01T06:27:00.002-05:00

I have been going to work and knocking off on time these days, which is really great.

Coming out from my office at 5.45 pm, I took my own sweet time driving around, and I went to Giant yesterday. It wasn't planned, I just decided to go at the junction when traffic light turned green. This is like the biggest Giant I ever been to. The best thing is, there's a pet shop in there. Of course I went in there to look for my new favorite. The pet shop is kinda small, I thought I won't be able to see any pets there. And there, I saw 'him' jumping around and calling me. Gosh, 3 months old, so adorable and active. A 'schnauzer'. The rest of the puppies are all sleeping or not moving at all. This 3-month fella just jumped here and there in the cage. I stood there for like half an hour. It was so tempting to ask the worker to let me have a hug of 'him', but I didn't, as I know one hug and I'll never be able to let go of 'him'. I whispered to 'him' before I left the shop, that I'll come back and bring 'him' home once I have the ability to feed myself well first. Then, I have decided to visit Giant more often than anywhere else. :)...

Today, I finally signed up for the True Fitness, very reluctantly to pay. But, I guess I'll be happier and healthier next time. :)...

Walking in the rain

2009-09-29T07:39:00.002-05:00

It is a good day!

I left my office at 5.45 pm sharp, and it started pouring outside. I was walking in the rain, all wet to the car park. It was fun though! I tried what you said we should try. The only thing I didn't do is looking face up to the sky, as the raindrops was quite heavy and I was with my glasses. :)...

Only recently that I realized routine life is not too bad at all. At least you won't have nothing in your mind of how your day is going to be. Everyday has something there that needs to be done. I think I am getting comfortable with my working life. The best thing about working life is that, working and non working hours are not interchangeable. I work, and I go home, and I have my time. As a student, there's no clear cut between study and non study time. One day I might be study all the time, and the other day I might be having fun all day. Or, I might be having fun when I supposed to study and I am studying when the rest are having fun. See.....lol.

Hmm... life is full of surprises. You never know what's coming next! :)...

~xoxo~

Another Week

2009-09-27T10:09:00.002-05:00

Yes, another weekend just passed like that. It was a fruitful weekend. Meeting up with 'long-lost' friends were fun; chatting and gossiping about everything brought back so much memories. The movie 'Orphan' is darn good. If you want some thrill, go for it! I swear I cannot even blink my eyes throughout the whole show, and it has unexpected ending. I likey!!! *Caramel popcorn is yummy*

The last weekend is coming. Somehow I was enlightened at this moment. Maybe it was the conversation with my housemates, maybe it was him telling me how his coming new life will be. I used to be very optimistic, maybe it's the lifestyle now that gets my nerve easily all the time.

I need to think through things......

Good Nighty!!

~xoxo~

Blur

2009-09-24T07:35:00.003-05:00

Haizzzzz......

So, I am certified to be a one big muddy head!

After almost a month staying by myself and taking care of myself by myself, I feel lucky enough that nothing really wrong happen to me, yet! I can't imagine my life in the States for the past three years if he were not there to take care of me.

First, never fail to be lost on my way to and from work. Never get to find my directions, no matter I am driving or walking.

Second, I can never remember my own cell phone number. So, never expect me to remember yours.

Third, I see my car everyday, and I never know it's JLT instead of JDT. I thought the car dealer gave me a used car with so many faulty parts, and I complaint to my dad, and, my dad called the fella and questioned aka scolded him. He asked me to open my eyes big big and go check the car plate again.

Then, just because of my falling handbag at the passenger seat that I can bump into the pillar at the toll. *hopeless*

More, always forget this and that. I can be so careless in handling accounts, either got the numbers wrong or totally missed out the account. I can either print my work super big on the A3 paper or print my work with words smaller than a font size 8. I sometimes forgot to deliver people's message for a call back.

Worse, I got home, taking the office keys to open my door, and surprisingly, two of the keys just fit nicely into each one of them, but not vice versa. So, I never realized I will get the wrong keys, and my door can never be opened. I called my housemate for help, and right after the call, I found the right keys.

The worst now, I don't even know if I am having sinus or a cold, if I am just heaty or having fever.

Don't be surprised by me!! As days go by, there will be much much more to come.

-s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s-

32 :)

2009-09-23T09:18:00.003-05:00

32, that's 8 years and 4 months! This becomes my new motivation! Somehow!

8 years and 4 months, and I'll have my dream job! How cool!

hee hee, you said it and i have it. So, let's do it!!

I am so looking forward to my dream job...

~xoxo~

Tee-Hee

2009-09-23T06:10:00.002-05:00

So, after a short break, back to work with AC not working in the office, which is good for me since I am down with a cold and running nose. It's almost the end of September already, which also means that I'm going to get my FIRST paycheck really soon. tee-hee. It's not the amount of the paycheck that excite me the most, but the effort and the endurance that I have put in for this one month. There were countless of time that I wanted to quit and just return to my comfort zone. It is so hard to persuade myself to stay tough and move on. I am glad that I made it, closed to a month already. :)... So, when I get my first pay, I am gonna have a good treat with my 11 (luckily he will be here to share my honor, ha-ha), and I am gonna make 4 small little red packets to give to the 4 important people behind me at home. G.R.E.A.T!!

I am in the process of feeding myself more, to get some fat onto my body. Two of the dresses that I brought back from US fit loosely on me, and all the A&F or AE jeans or skirts that I bought with size 0 can only be wore once and I was forced to wash it after that as they become too loose. I only have one A&F skirt size 00 that still fits well. *swt* Thinking of the time when I first went over, I was a size 2. What happened? I came back with a size 00!!! :(...

I do miss my swimming time, my jogging time, and my gym time. I was healthier and fitter before. Office lady is not very nice to be in the long run though. *thinking, hmm...*

I think I want to eat Kajang satay and Kajang 99...*slurp*

Looking forward to the show of New Moon in November, but, who am I gonna watch with? :(...

~xoxo~

16/09/09 Wednesday

2009-09-18T10:17:00.001-05:00

Counting down 2 days till Raya weekend!!!

This is officially my FIRST 'long' break after started working three weeks ago. I am very looking forward to it, although I know it's going to pass just like that. I know I am going to be very sad at the end of the break, but I choose to be happy first and enjoy the every moment I have, with him.

I was thinking a lot when I was driving home from work today. It was raining very heavily, with horrible traffic jam. I was in the car, enjoying the songs and the blurry view. Flashing back on my life in US and comparing my life now in Malaysia actually made me think of the poem I learn in Form 5- the road not taken. Sometimes, it is really not about good or bad in things we do, but the process that we have gone through and the experience that we have gained in life that make the difference. No one knows if I'll be doing fine in US if I were to stay there. No one knows if I'll be having an easy life there in US if I were still there. No one really knows if I'll still have him by my side if we were to be still in US. I always believe that God made a special path to each and every one of us, and I definitely think that God has been always nicer to me. I am always surrounded by kind people, and there's always someone there to help me when I am feeling helpless. Although I complain sometimes about my life, about my work, and about everything, but I do think there's nothing more that I can ask for. I am blessed enough to have everything that I want.

I have to be strong and independent when he is gone. This is my early New Year resolution. Everything's gonna be good!

~xoxo~

From Heaven To Hell

2009-09-13T05:22:00.005-05:00

I had the best and the worst (I'm stupid!) weekend ever.

It was a short but meaningful two days. September 12, 2009, at Kajang Catholic Church, I got my Promise back. A promise that is more than just words. A Promise that will keep me strong and determined in living my life better. A Promise that makes me happy when everything else is not so smooth. I got it back, and I'll keep it forever with me. Thank you and I love you!!

It was a short but meaningful two days. Two days of having someone to pamper me all the time, holding his hands makes me feel so secured. And just the two days, enough to defeat my two weeks hard work to stay tough and strong by myself. All my big will and strength just vanish like that. I hate myself. I hate my tears. They make me feel weak, so not the person he wants me to be. A lot of things hiding in my heart, that I will never want to say, as I know he knows what's the best for us in the future. When you're getting old, you know life is not a drama, but a very realistic live show. Take it, or leave it.

I am feeling better now.

~xoxo~

Ha-Ha

2009-09-09T07:20:00.003-05:00

It's finally Wednesday!!

I'll start planning on Hari Raya trip now.

Just in case you're wondering how am I doing with my job, it's already the second week of work, and I'm getting more and more comfortable with my work. More and more people is joining our team, and that makes it more fun to be in the office. I am learning a lot, not only the technical part but also the working attitude wise. I always observe how people around me behave, and I do think working experience does make a person different in certain way. I enjoy watching the experienced ones work as they're just so professional no matter how old they're. It's fun!

If you're wondering about my life after work, well, it's very simple i would say. I reach home earlier and earlier (that's because I know my way home already, not that I get off work earlier, :)..), and I always bargain with the jaga at the gate to give me discount for the parking fees. Then I reach home, and I stay home. Online is what I do for the rest of the night. Usually I would have to spend at least an hour a day on the phone with my folks at home, telling them how my day went. They're seriously worried about my life in KL by myself. But I'm doing fine. I am pretty occupied already, so I will rather use the rest of my free time online, reading books, or relaxing myself on my comfy bed.

Dad asked me the other day if I am going to live my life like this for the rest of my life, work then go home and work again and then go home again. I don't know. I am now at a stage like a baby exploring a new world. Everything seems new and interesting. I don't find it routine yet. But, I believe things will eventually become repetitive by themselves. So, what I can do when I am by myself, is to give myself more surprises in life and more things to look forward to. This is life.

~xoxo~

Good Day

2009-09-08T00:41:00.002-05:00

It's always different when you have something to look forward to. Time pass faster and easier; life is more beautiful. When you're in this good mood, even a malfunction GPS doesn't seemed to be the end of the world. Gladly to say, my phobia of driving in KL is gradually subsiding, which also means that I'll be planning some shopping trips here and there, and which will result in burning a hole in my pocket. Well, no way! I'm no longer the old me. When you're working, you're supposed to be financially independent from the family. At least it is a principal that I upheld to. Shopping will remain as my favorite activity, the only antidote to my depression and whatsoever sickness. Well, maybe window shopping!

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday!!!

~xoxo~

Ngo Howl Cy Lay Arr....

2009-09-07T09:30:00.002-05:00

Good news!

Today is the first day that I got home without the help of my GPS, and, five minutes earlier.

I think we should be more independent and less dependent on technology. Sometimes! :)...

Book I am reading: For One More Day. A very good book!

Good nighty!

4 more days...

~xoxo~

New Week

2009-09-06T08:52:00.003-05:00

Super excited!

Can't wait for the weekend!

Looking forward for the Hari Raya holidays!

I'll live through this week, very happily and smoothly.

I'm so proud of myself, today~~

~xoxo~

Absence Makes the Hearts Grow Fonder

2009-09-04T09:57:00.002-05:00

At least, when the whole world does not think long distance relationship is going to last, you told me firmly and surely, that we're gonna be fine. Your words are greater than anything else.

At least, my heart does not feel falling apart anymore. My mind returns peaceful.

At least, I have that little more courage to face everything here by myself.

At least, I will have a good night sleep tonight.

Absence makes the hearts grow fonder. I believe you.

~xoxo~

Numb

2009-09-04T00:44:00.002-05:00

Numb; as I no longer feel the passing of time. I'm just flowing with the time, day by day.

Numb; as I can be so ignorant to my own feeling now. I do not even want to care if I'm happy or not.

Numb; as I have built some antibody to all the problems. Problem arises, I deal with it. Do not ask me about tomorrow. I don't know.

I'm living life. or. Life is leaving me.

~xoxo~

Second Day of Work

2009-09-02T06:18:00.002-05:00

Mind:"I have to be strong. I promised people that I'll be good. Everything will be fine."

Heart:"I don't think I can do it anymore. I feel as if there are a thousand tons of stones buried on me."

Mind:"Don't think about anything else. Just go and work and have fun."

Heart:"I spent all my god damn money on parking fees and petrol, just because I don't have that little sense of direction."

Mind:"Please eat more. You need more strength to be happy, to show people that you're fine. You need to put on some weight."

Heart:"Everytime I have stomachache and then diarrhe before leaving house. That's because of the nervousness of driving (I just knew it today). Everytime when I come out from the car at the car park, I feel like vomiting, the feeling of something pressing on my chest. At the end, I cannot eat anything. I lost all my appetite."

Mind:"I really like to be in my room. It's big enough for me to breath, and it has nice view at night."

Heart:"It's big enough for me to feel lonely. So lonely that I don't even know how to appreciate the night."

Mind:"It's not a big deal to wash your clothes with hands, tidy your room, and boil your drinking water."

Heart:"Two days clothes haven't wash, room is not tidy at all, and always forgot to boil water. When all these in a mess, I am screwed."

~xoxo~

First Day of Work

2009-09-01T09:01:00.004-05:00

It's time for the checklist. Let's see~~

MY JOB

Have my own big table. Yes! It's big!
In a fully AC place. Yes! Temperature is just nice for me!
Number of employees in the company at least 100. Kind of true. It has 800+ employees. But not in the office I am sitting. It has subsidiaries everywhere.
Have a comfy office chair. Yes!
Have a 22-inch LCD monitor on my table. No. But I'll be getting a Dell laptop though. :)...
My own extension number. Yes yes yes.
A pile of files/works that can keep me working. Not today, but I'm sure I'll in few days time. (observing the people around me working the whole day, they ARE busy)
Dress code: formal. Heels a must. Very the importantly CORRECT! :)...My feet are all blisters now that I have to beg for plasters from my housemate.
Super good internet connection in the company. I believe so. I saw the girl beside me checking Edward Cullens all the time today, watching movie preview, etc.
Free membership to a fitness center. (or just let me have a fitness center nearby, I am willing to pay myself. Boo.) Well, they seriously do have a fitness center so happen in the plaza. BUT, I do not have the money to go. Boo...

MY HOUSE

Near my workplace. Pretty near. :)...
Fully AC. NO!! But it's level 16, pretty cooling. hehe...
Small. Not bad! I have my master bedroom, with attached bathroom, that's enough.
Fully carpeted. Not yet. But I'll put carpet on it once I have money.
Has a 32-inch flat screen TV. No! I don't think I have time to watch TV though. First thing I want to do after work is to go online and talk to my dear and friends. They're my charger.
Bath tub. Nope!
A fridge of course. Yes!
A wardrobe enough to store all my clothing. Preferably a separate one for my hundreds of pairs of heels. I find this one funny because, not only I don't have a wardrobe now, my clothings are all in my big luggage and shoes are all in plastic bags, how pathetic!
A big mirror somewhere, but not in my room. Yes! In my room, and at door side.
Broadband internet connection, so that I can online even if I am 'doing business' in the bathroom. Yes! But the broadband is worse than a narrowband in that lovely country.
A very small garden in front (minimal maintenance). No! A golf club at the back, and my favourite One Utama is so near yet so far from me.
A park or a lake nearby. Yes. I found one pak to lake there.
Mr. 11 is accessible in a 15 minutes driving distance, if not in my house. :)... Sadly to say, the most important one became the least possible one. He will be an ocean away. I'll be good, and be tough.
A dog (named mow mow) sits at home waiting for me to go home everyday. Ben ben Dan dan sleep with me every night. Sorry Mow mow, I'll bring you home when I have many many raises first.
Possibly a piano too. Do not need it anymore.
Do not need to be near to a hawker center. I am more than willing to walk a few miles for food. (I can even live with wheat bread and tuna, or a cheaper meal of wheat bread and peanut butter) Food cost money. I don't have money. Thus, I don't eat.

God is pretty nice to me. Always. :)

~xoxo~

Big Girls Don't Cry

2009-08-31T09:29:00.002-05:00

It's a very hard day for me today.

People has to learn from the hardest way.

I learnt a lot today.

I just realized that I am still SO NOT used to my Malaysia life, after two weeks. What's wrong with me? Maybe I have been overestimating myself all the while. I think I am.

Or maybe I should forget my lovely Ames and the dream land of America, live my life and move on.

I'll burst out crying if anyone were to pamper me a lil right now.

Big Girls Don't Cry

~xoxo~

Ship will be straight once it reaches the bridge LOL

2009-08-27T19:33:00.007-05:00

It has been raining these few days.

I have been pretty occupied lately, in readying myself to work and getting know more of my colleagues. I know I'm always bad in making decision, big or small.

But since I have decided to work in Kuala Lumpur (instead of Singapore) and with this company, I really hope I will get some support from people around me, and not just questioning my decision. I won't be earning big bucks now, but c'mon, give me some time! At least let me have a taste of working environment first, I am too tired to just live in my own imagination and picture myself in suit and heels to work. There's always solutions if problems arise afterwards.

All I need is support! I need support to generate courage so that I can walk into my office proudly, confidently introduce myself to everyone else.

I live my life; I fall and I should get up

~xoxo~

Blissful

2009-08-21T10:00:00.002-05:00

How blissful of me to see him in just a week time apart, instead of my previous thought of a month time.

How blissful of me to have our first meal in Malaysia together, at Tesco foodcourt, experiencing the very malaysian way of dinner.

How blissful of me to enjoy in his loves and hugs once again, so soon.

I'm easily satisfied. I have everything I want.

Life is perfect!

~xoxo~

House Hunting

2009-08-20T18:42:00.002-05:00

I'm going to spend my weekend in KL searching for room and shopping for some working attires. XD!

Fall semester is starting soon. I wish all my friends good luck and have fun in this new semester.

:)...

~xoxo~

New Updates

2009-08-19T05:33:00.003-05:00

It's my fifth day in Malaysia. How fast!!! I still remember those days that I was counting down till the day home.

It's my fifth day. I basically drive everyday to improve my driving skill. It's getting better, but not up to the standard yet. :)...

After 5 days in Malaysia, I have come to realize a few things:

1) Motorbikers, truck drivers, and bus drivers are people that I should avoid whenever they're on the road.

2) Hot weather does make people hot temper. I'm not in very good manner whenever the heat overwhelms me.

3) Food is really good here.

4) Everything is VERY expensive here. I was shopping with my mom today, and we bought some cosmetics, just a few drugstore cosmetics, and here goes my RM200++.

5) No sugar in the sundry shop. Yes, they said sundry shop. Haha...

6) My friends in Ames never lie. The internet connection here is SLOW. I have broadband now, and I can never sign in MSN. *Sigh*

7) People here are not as nice and friendly as people in Ames. They look at you a lot, from head to toe.

8) The guy who works in the eye center doesn't know how a Gucci logo looks like, and he is selling me a Prada glasses.

9) It's not easy to own a car when you're earning Ringgit.

10) I am very thankful to god that I came home. The old folks at home now are so fragile. I am spending fruitful time with them whenever they're with me.

So, I am getting better. *wink*

'Da Tow' and 'Ke Ai', my precious, are always keeping me busy in the morning. They're lying beside me now when I'm writing this blog. How blissful...

~xoxo~

Malaysia

2009-08-18T09:13:00.002-05:00

Bitterness in the sweetness;

Sweetness in the bitterness.

This is Malaysia.

I'll survive. All I need is time.

I hope I'm just having sinus, nothing closed to cold, or flu, or swine flu. @_@

~xoxo~

Flying

2009-08-14T01:50:00.003-05:00

I told you this world is amazing.

How amazing?

When you lose something, you gain something else.
When you're leaving, you're going somewhere else.
When you're moving out, people move in.
When your friends in Ames are sad bidding good bye to you, your friends and family in Malaysia are excited to welcome you home.

This world is amazing I told you.

I am sad and happy. I am amazing too!

*My last hot pot dinner in Ames, with my amazing friends*

*Leaving on a jet plane, I'll be back, people!!*

~xoxo~

I Am Nervous

2009-08-12T00:02:00.002-05:00

Tomorrow is the last day in Ames. I was readying myself to go home since the second I knew I am going home. But, I still have endless things to do till today. I do not understand. People said 'you'll only appreciate when you know you're going to lose something'. That's exactly how I feel now. 24 hours are not enough for me to clean my home, to finish up my packing, to meet people that I supposed to see, to have dinner with people that want to bid good bye to me, and to enjoy the last second of Ames. No, it's not enough. I'm scared. I am scared that if I missed out somebody, I might not be seeing him/her anymore for the rest of my life. I am very much afraid of regretting for my life. I don't want to regret. Every time when I realize that this might be the last time to see this person, my heart sinks deeper. I don't know how deep my heart will be after tomorrow. My friends, live life to the max. I wish each and everyone of you full happiness in life, great success in the future.
Your friend (me!!) might not be the richest person with the most glamorous job in Malaysia, however, she is definitely a happy one, always will be. :)...One cheer to life. All the best!!!!

~xoxo~

Big 4

2009-08-05T00:28:00.002-05:00

What is 'success' means?

Graduate with 4.0, get a job right after, work for one of the big 4, enjoy the admiration and jealousy from everybody. Is that all?

ALL the accounting or finance or business students are dying to get into big 4, why?

So everybody is looking down on small firms now?

Should one as fresh grad with no stories behind be choosy when given RM1500 or RM2000 monthly salary?

I am confused, quite confused. I need to see, feel, and get a touch on the Malaysia job market now.

What's Next?

2009-08-04T00:09:00.004-05:00

So, the greatest news of today is, the car is sold! *relieved*

People will come and move all the furniture, TV, and stuffs tomorrow. Things are getting cleared faster than I thought. However, I am totally exhausted from all the selling, buying, and packing fun. Yes, I am tired.

I was thinking, life is really amazing. You'll never know what's in front. So, when you missed some good stuffs, it's OK, because the better or the best one is yet to come. Everything leads to something. Try not to be doubtful with any decisions you have made, as there are no one good/ bad or right/wrong decision. It's the stories that every decision created that make life beautiful. I do believe so.

So, the worst news of today is, I just found out that my Malaysia driving license expired half a year ago. What should I do?

~xoxo~

Sunday 3-in-1 Meal

2009-08-03T00:14:00.003-05:00

Today is funny, because I had my long forgotten 3-in-1 meal practice again. The last time I did that was when I was in Inti, before the Mr. 11's era. That was horrible! I was eating lesser than a kid just to keep myself thin. I still remember that I kept myself empty stomach for the day and went to the tom yam store at night for dinner- my favorite tom yam with lotsa chili padi, ended up diarrhea in the hostel every single time. BUT, all these BAD practices did not give skinny body.

So, I woke up 11.30am today and went to the gym. I came home after an hour. Thinking of what to eat took forever. I had my so called 'bruncher' (breakfast+lunch+dinner) around 3pm. A buffet bruncher. That keeps me full for the rest of the night, although I was doing quite a lot of packing. :)...

9 more days!!

*HAPPY 41-MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ED&KEL*

The last anniversary of ours in Ames.
The last summer of ours in Ames.
No more snow for us.
My hamster babies have gone to new home.
My last weekend in Ames is coming very SOON...
I do Not want to forget everything here.
I won't!

~xoxo~

14 Days

2009-07-29T11:45:00.003-05:00

Two more weeks, 14 more days!! It's the end of July already. Gawd!! My last summer in Ames just past like that. I can't believe there're only two more weekends here in Ames for me. He said: "Two more weeks only, do what you want and need to do here before you go, eat what you want and like to eat now before you leave." My mind went blank. I do not know what I want or how I want it to be for these last two short weeks.

How will I feel when it's the very time to go?
I know I'll be sad; I hope I won't be too sad.

~xoxo~

Review: Dove Ultimate Visibly Smooth Deodorant

2009-07-27T14:41:00.002-05:00

Summer is all about sweat and scorching sun. For ladies who love to exercise and keep themselves active without having B.O in this hot summer, Dove Ultimate Visibly Smooth Anti-Perspirant Deodorant is a must-have.

This is a new product of Dove, launching on May 2009 in US. This deodorant claims to create stubble free for longer and minimizes the visual appearance of hair over time. After using it for more than a week, I think there is some truth to the claims. First, I love the lightly scented smell of rose. It's just so refreshing. Second, this deodorant stick goes on with a dry feel. I simply love this one because you will never want to angle up your arms, stucking there waiting for the deodorant to dry before putting up your clothings. Then, It also moisturizes the irritating after-shave underarm skin. Last but not least, it lightens the underarm area which shows darker tone due to long term shaving without moisturizer.

All in all, I definitely love this deodorant. What is better is that, you can go to this site http://www.dove.us/visiblysmooth#/visiblysmooth/coupon.aspx/ and get a $2 off coupon. You pay less than two dollars for this great product. Sweet!!!

~xoxo~

Dreams

2009-07-21T22:41:00.003-05:00

Very soon, I'll be landing in another country (which I called home) and start a new life. Ever since the counting down till the days home started, I have a lot of fantasies about my coming future, be it in my dreams, when I swim, or when I jog. Those pictures are just so tempting, tempting me to move towards that direction. Well, I decided to do a checklist here today. A checklist that composed of my dreams (& hopefully can be realized soon in the future) .

MY JOB

Have my own big table.
In a fully AC place.
Number of employees in the company at least 100.
Have a comfy office chair.
Have a 22-inch LCD monitor on my table.
My own extension number.
A pile of files/works that can keep me working.
Dress code: formal. Heels a must.
Super good internet connection in the company.
Free membership to a fitness center. (or just let me have a fitness center nearby, I am willing to pay myself. Boo.)

MY HOUSE

Near my workplace.
Fully AC.
Small.
Fully carpeted.
Has a 32-inch flat screen TV.
Bath tub.
A fridge of course.
A wardrobe enough to store all my clothing. Preferably a separate one for my hundreds of pairs of heels.
A big mirror somewhere, but not in my room.
Broadband internet connection, so that I can online even if I am 'doing business' in the bathroom.
A very small garden in front (minimal maintenance).
A park or a lake nearby.
Mr. 11 is accessible in a 15 minutes driving distance, if not in my house. :)...
A dog (named mow mow) sits at home waiting for me to go home everyday.
Possibly a piano too.
Do not need to be near to a hawker center. I am more than willing to walk a few miles for food. (I can even live with wheat bread and tuna, or a cheaper meal of wheat bread and peanut butter)

Is this too much to ask for? Maybe. Maybe not.

Is it going to be realized? Who cares. Live big, dream big!

I'll be the luckiest of the luckiest person in the world if everything in the checklist become my reality. :)...

We shall see how much differences are there in my life and my expected life in a month time. Haha...

~xoxo~

12 Hours...

2009-07-19T12:59:00.001-05:00

I played for 12 hours and slept for 12 hours...

What a balanced life...

Happy Birthday Junyi!!

~xoxo~

Old

2009-07-17T14:10:00.004-05:00

What're you going to do when you are old, old like 85 years old?

If you're lucky enough, you have filial children and grandchildren, you have enough money to spend, your brain is not fully dead yet, your physical still allows you to carry on with your daily life without adding too much burden to people around you. Is that all one can have and do when one is old?

If you're old and you tend to repeat and repeat on what you say, they think you're annoying.
If you're old and you can't hear clearly, they don't even bother to say one more time.
If you're old and you walk slower than the slowest, they think you should just sit and don't go anywhere.
If you're old and you still want to do things by yourself, they think you're just being stubborn.

Why getting old has to be the last stage of a human life? Is it fair to let a person who has gone through so much after years and years in life to be THIS OLD?

What else do you think you will ask for when you're this old?

'I want my grandkids to love me'
"I love my grandpa, so so much"

Mac

2009-07-13T16:09:00.004-05:00

One of the best thing of going home for good is that, you can shop like as if there is no tomorrow. Yes!!! I have been shopping a LOT since I know I am leaving this shopping heaven. I somehow can't remember how's shopping in Malaysia is like already. Malaysia in my impression has nothing too cool to shop for. Maybe I am just giving myself more excuses to shop more at the moment. Maybe I need to go home this time and discover myself what's in Malaysia. :)...

I got my MacBook Pro (free iPod Touch) and Sony Ericsson Xperia this morning. Although I was pretty annoyed by the Fedex lady who woke me up at 9.30am with continuos door bell ringing, these items enough to make my morning a beautiful one. I love love love love my new gadgets!!! I am pretty much staying home all day recently either waiting for all my purchases to arrive or playing with all my cool gadgets. Awesome!! Life can never be better...

~xoxo~

Beauty Facts

2009-07-12T15:41:00.002-05:00

How to get the best underarm shave?
Cosmopolitan August issue: Pull skin taut with one hand, then shave in a "t" pattern. Run your razor from top to bottom, then left to right, for a close shave. Cool!

Care for Feet
BellaSugar: Jimmy Choo, a luxury fashion designer best known for his hand-made women's shoes (He is a Malaysian), dished advice on caring for feet!!! Datuk Choo opts out of going barefoot on the sand, choosing instead to wear sandals. He added:

"You have to look after your feet, keep them clean and healthy. You should wash them every night in warm, salted water before going to bed."

True piece of advice!! :)...

Have a great Sunday!!!

~xoxo~

Lioele Beyond the Solution bb cream Review

2009-07-08T17:36:00.004-05:00

Bb cream (Blemish Balm cream) is getting extremely popular in Asia. It was originated from Germany and widely spread in Korea. It became the most favourite product of Korea celebrities. Some people even called it the miracle cream. What makes it so special is that it is a skincare/ healing product combined with make up, which means it does wonders to your skin while covering up. There are different types of bb cream, whitening, anti-wrinkles, lighten acne scars, etc.

I purchased Lioele Beyond the Solution bb cream few months ago. I got it from an ebay seller Legendeaux who is based in Korea for less than $20 shipped. There are actually many other brands available, BRTC, Skin79, Missha, Hanskin. I chose Lioele because it has pretty good reviews and it is not overpriced.

Well, my primary intention of purchasing this bb cream is to has a natural coverage for my acne scars and to heal the scars without clogging the pores. However, I think Lioele gives only sheer coverage (like a tinted moisturizer). It does not cover acne scars very well. Besides the sheer coverage, if you are looking for a bb cream to minimize tiny visible pores and improve the texture of your skin, Lioele is for you. It does not clog pores and it works very well in covering visible pores. Also, this 50ml Lioele bb cream is enough to last for half a year, or even more. :)...

Word of advice, even though bb cream supposed to work like a moisturizer/skincare product, do not wear it to sleep and always remove it with make up remover. Stay pretty!!!

~xoxo~

Third Of The Month

2009-07-03T00:39:00.005-05:00

Life has never been this fun without you...

~~HAPPY 40TH-MONTH-ANNIVERSARY TO ED&KEL~~~

~xoxo~

Portland

2009-06-28T02:41:00.002-05:00

I am currently at Portland. FUN!!!! Jason Shim, who is top five in Malaysia table tennis and still unbeatable in Washington, won the open table tennis Portland today. He is...cool!!! Very impressive!!! We ate so much!!! I am very excited for tomorrow shopping and Monday sightseeing tour.

To be continued...

~xoxo~

One Week Vacation Starts Tomorrow

2009-06-23T16:17:00.004-05:00

~Yay~ I am going to Seattle and Portland for a week starting from tomorrow. I am pretty excited about it. By the time I come home, it would be July already. I can't wait to go back to Malaysia already.

Apparently, swine flu is 'officially' hitting Malaysia. There are schools closing down for a week or so due to the flu. And our beloved Health Minister is urging students coming back from US, UK, Australia, Philippines MUST stay home for 7 days aka quarantine ourselves. I hope everything will be fine by the time I fly back on August.

Weird weather today...

Till then,

~xoxo~

Beware of Scam

2009-06-22T16:45:00.003-05:00

Beware of scam people! There are so many scams online nowadays. Once you post something up for sale, you will immediately receive a lot of replies from people everywhere in the world giving you all kinds of reasons of buying, and requiring you to send the way they want you to. The common part is, they will always offer a lot more money than the price you set claiming for the shipping. Facebook, Craigslist, ebay, etc. Scams are everywhere. Ignore those buyers from facebook that contacted you with no profile picture and asking you to contact them through another email addresses. There are a lot of the replied emails which looked almost the same in the content (they are automatically generated), and they are scams. The lady working at the post office just told me today that Nigeria has the most scams. They don't even want to ship the item for you if you tell them that you are shipping this thing to Nigeria for sale. Insane!!

I personally encountered this before. I was selling a book for a little over a hundred dollars, and there was this guy who wanted to buy from me .He wanted me to send the book to UK using his own shipping carrier, and he claimed that he is going to pay me extra to thank me for my effort. He told me that he is going to send over two thousand dollars for me to ship and required me to wire the extra money back to him using Western Union, minus the 'commission' I'll get for being nice. I was very doubtful in the beginning and I asked for the check first before I can ship. I told him I need to receive the check and deposit the check first before I can wire the extra money back to him as I don't have that much of money in my bank account. He sent me emails everyday telling me his carrier is waiting for my shipment and I NEED TO DO IT IMMEDIATELY! I do not care, and when I actually received the check, I brought it to the bank and told the bank manager about the whole situation. She chenked for me and found out that the router number is invalid. It's an INVALID check. The bank also advised me to make a report to the police (which I did not do to avoid troubles). I was so pissed and I replied the guy for the last email, fulled with cursings and words that I don't even know when and where I leart from.

Well, I haven't fall into any online traps so far of my online tradings, but I am really annoyed by all these scams. Online world is getting so ugly. Urgg...

Good things of today are, I finally received my camera, my VS purchase, and my twilight book 4. Also, I just leart backstroke today. I'm improving!!! *one cheer to life*

Life is good!!! :)...

~xoxo~

Having Fun, Too Much Fun

2009-06-21T11:30:00.004-05:00

I don't even have time to blog!!! :)...

I have to announce here: I caught a BIG fish!!! Finally!! It is big and fat, 18 inches long. *yay* I am taking a break from sunday fishing, but I will still have fish buffet later tonight with my fellow combats who are still fighting their best to catch sea monsters right now at the big creek. lol...(photos will be uploaded soon)

I was having so much fun at the Omaha Zoo yesterday. Henry Doorly Zoo is the best zoo in America, if not the largest. My favourite parts would be the tigers and the sharks. The white tiger is so cool. They have polar bear too, although it is smaller than my imaginative bear. I love going with Lou, Alicia, Darrin, Maru, Sonia, Bryant, and of course, my dear. They are just fun to hang out with. I love the picnic style lunch and dinner. It saves money, saves time, plus you get to talk a lot with friends and enjoy food that are prepared by each other. Awesome trip!!! I am going to miss these people so much later on...

Damn! I missed the Bare Escentuals 25% off on everything 3 days sales already.

Something worth mentioned, Sephora came out with its new boxed set. What is so cool about these sets of miniature beauty products is that, it gives us a chance to try out several different products without committing to a full size of something that may or may not work for us. For example, the Lash Stash Deluxe Sampler has 11 Sephora best-seller mini mascaras in it, which includes stila, lancome, bare escentuals, and more. So cool! And, these sets only cost $24-$40. GREAT VALUE!!!

Wednesday Dinner Gathering

2009-06-17T22:53:00.007-05:00

I wasn't feeling well yesterday. Same old sickness-dizziness. Head spinning like anything. I thought I am going to throw out and will need to be sent to health center, luckily I was not. But I skipped my swimming session yesterday. I miss it so much!!! :(...

It is a darn hot day today. The heat and the stuffy air remind me of Malaysia. I don't think I can live well with it. I don't even want to think about it now.

I went to the gym. I was already sweating even before doing anything, but it feels good. I was cycling while reading Eclipse(Yes, I read real slow so as to wait for the next book to arrive). The story is so dragging which annoyed me a little bit. I started to hate Bella, who can love and kiss Jacod and at the same time wants to marry Edward to have sex with him. Whatever...!!! Anyway, I also played volleyball with myself. *poor me*

Our Indian dinner night was really good. I was very happy to see all my friends again. I haven't seen them a lot since I graduated. Meeting them brought back the memories of working at the foodcourt and cafe. I think I am going to miss that time a lot. *sob*

Now, I got a job interview offered by a tax company at Petaling Jaya. I hope the job vacancy is still there by the time I go home. I swear I'll take anything I can get. But, does anyone knows a better job seeking website for Malaysia or Singapore, other than jobstreet? A job-hunting website with better-quality companies...hmmp...

-todayIthinkofthefirsttimeweholdhandsIfeelsweetIstilldo-

~xoxo~

Another Monday

2009-06-15T16:11:00.006-05:00

I said that I am going to stay fair till I go home, I failed. Fishing took my word, putting me in a sun-phobia condition now. My past weekend was nothing but fishing. The zero fish result on saturday had motivated me to the fullest, and here we go, 7.30am at the Ada Hayden Lake, with no time for breakfast but a banana. With the help of the grossed live bait, I got two fishes very quickly. TWO!!! Two small baby fishes, which are not allowed to bring home but to let them back to their world. None of us get any big fish there. Out of disappointment, we decided to leave the place and went for quick lunch, before switching to another BIGGER lake with MORE BIGGER fishes. And we went, at noon, fishing for 3++ hours under the scorching sun. I am so regret right now. Although I was all wrapped with umbrella from time to time, I just can't be spared from getting brown. Anyway, good news is, two of our heroes caught 8 big fishes. I got another 2, again, small fishes! @^$%&^@#_(*@. We did have our fish buffet at night. Three steamed and the rest were cooked asam. They were so delicious. Lakers won the championship, as many expected; Kobe Bryant was awarded MVP, nothing surprising!

The whole weekend of fishing and eating out made me feel unhealthy. I have had stomachache throughout the two days. I am feeling better now after swimming.

I cleared part of my before-home shopping lists during the weekend. Too bad a short from Hollister is not available anymore. I knew this would happen, I knew it!! I shouldn't have hesitating for so long.

Now, I need new skincare and make up products. I think it's time to have a total makeover for my cosmetics. I seriously think I should get better products this time instead of the common drugstore brands. The coming endless interviews and working life would require more make up, and appearance does count in Malaysia I would say (I love Americans, they don't say "you're ugly!" or "you're fat!"). I am still researching on these products, and at the meantime, Clinique, PurMinerals, and Bobbi Brown are on top of the list. Bobbi Brown does have very nice make up products I must say, but they are really expensive. I will need more time to compare in order to make costs < benefits decision. :)...Well, hopefully I have the luck to buy them at Seattle Premium Outlet though.

This week is going to pass fast! Wednesday Indian-themed dinner at friend's house, Saturday one day outing at Omaha Zoo, and Sunday fishing day. In between I'll be excitedly looking forward to the arrival of all my online purchases. *yay*

~xoxo~

Resume and Fishing

2009-06-13T23:28:00.003-05:00

Saturday, I spent some time with myself today. I was talking to friends in Malaysia, happily announcing my date home. Only did I realized that a lot of my friends who had graduated almost the same time as me will start their working life soon, very soon, everywhere in Malaysia and Singapore. I can't waste time anymore, I don't want to waste time anymore. I should have enough break by then. If I were to still lead my honeymoon life after I go home, that would probably be just an excuse for me to escape from working. I always remind myself that this trip home is not for fun anymore.

Anyway, I did quite some job applications on Jobstreet for KL and Singapore. The application style is so different!!! In Malaysia, employers want you to voice out your expected salary, which in US is a BIG NO, until you secure the job. Then, most companies in Malaysia ask for a photo along with your resume, and in US, this will constitute a kind of discrimination. Not only photo, US companies cannot even ask for gender, race, or marital status questions in conducting interview. Another thing would be the length of your resume. My friend told me that her resume is 2 pages long and 3 pages with photo included. I was always told by my career coordinator to keep my resume in one page no matter how. Wondering why America always wants to be different from the rest of the world in everything.

Finally I went to BestBuy to try out camera and MacBook Pro. I love them!!! I am going to get them...both. *cool*

First fishing session happened today. It was sunny and hot. I had my SPF50 on. I am still very worried about getting tanned. I don't want to be tanned this summer, not this time. I don't want to go home causing neighbors telling my mom that I looked like I just lived at Africa for sometime, dark and thin (which happened last summer). I will try my very best to stay indoor till I get on the plane. But fishing, I guess I need to wear all long next time. I love my new hobby. Fishing is fun. Fishes in America are probably mostly deaf, because we talked and we shouted (maybe just me) and those dummies never go away. Result, I got zero fish today!!! Zero fish!!! Oh my!!! We were annoyed as the fake bait we used only lured the fishes to play with our bait. They never got hooked up. We went to Wal-Mart again and got the live bait. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am going fishing again tomorrow at 7am to find my big fat fishy. I promise to have fish buffet tomorrow evening while watching NBA finals!! We shall see...

Till then,

~xoxo~

Happy Friday

2009-06-12T21:00:00.002-05:00

1. Slept pretty well last night, just one nightmare, I'll take it. :)...

2. Sold most of the big stuffs at home already, within two days, now...car. CAR FOR SALE people!!!

3. Swam like a fish today, well, maybe a slower fish...

4. Currently at the last chapter of Eclipse, damn Bella is so greedy. She wants both Edward Cullen and Jacod Black. How could she not be satisfied to have that Edward? The Edward who is very attractive, rich, powerful, protective, loving, and immortal. Insane!

5. Raining and raining and more raining...

6. Bought fishing license and fishing pole already. Yes, fishing in US needs license!! Cost me $17.50. hemp...I wish I could get few salmons, that would worth the license money. Still, I am VERY excited for fishing this weekend.

7. 4-on-4 volleyball, tiring, 2-1, we won!!! Never eat McChicken half an hour before sport. It makes me sick!!!

8. Can't wait to go to Best Buy tomorrow to check out the Sony Cybershot W220 and MacBook Pro that I am going to buy.

9. Probably the last NBA game for this season on this coming Sunday. MUST WATCH!!!!!

~xoxo~

Victoria Secret

2009-06-11T10:10:00.005-05:00

Another same sleepless night...

VIctoria Secret, as usual, is having its summer sales right now.

One bra that caught my attention: 100-way bra.

In my opinion, this bra is essential to every lady. It has so many ways of wearing and the best things are, it has a subtle lift for better shape and underwire cups for support. It also comes in three easy-to-match colors, nude, white, and black. Bare back dress is no longer a problem. Comparing to using adhesive tapes, this bra definitely yields better result and is more securing in any way.

I talked to some boutique shop assistants and also VS employees, VS is the only brand that has low back strapless bra. Since VS is discounting this bra from $50 to $37.50 right now, it is definitely a good grab.

To purchase, http://www.victoriassecret.com/commerce/onlineProductDisplay.vs?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=CP-211598&page=1&cgname=OSBRPCNTZZZ.

Notice: It says sales end tomorrow. (I am a little doubt about it though)

~xoxo~

What's Happening?!?!

2009-06-10T17:14:00.003-05:00

So what now??

Had been bothering by what I called the 'post-graduation trauma', and finally now I am released. Yes I am happy. I am still happy. But why in the world that I can't get a good night sleep? I am feeling sudden dizziness more often than usual today, and I can't seem to concentrate on anything I do.

There are so many things need to be handled right now. We have so many things at home that need to be sold or given away. Minusing the travelling period we planned on, there are really not much time left. I haven't have time to bid good bye to people I know here. Or I guess I am actually avoiding it. I am always a coward when it comes to separation. Everytime!! Every single time I have to leave or people has to leave me, my first reaction would be to avoid seeing anyone that might cause me tears. Everytime! Every single time I never succeeded in controlling my tears. Leaving NS camp, Leaving my form 6 friends, Leaving Inti, Leaving Malaysia, now Leaving America. I sometimes hate the emotional part of me.

Well, forgive me if I leave without bidding goodbye. I am still a coward after all these years.

Big Decision

2009-06-09T15:24:00.003-05:00

Well, people said making decision is always the hardest, especially when you have so many uncertainties lying ahead. So true!! And I have been going through so many brain-cracking decision making process after my graduation. I know now is the point in life where I need to set a path for my future. Future, future seems to be so subjective and unpredictable. I thought I know what I want, I am so sure that I can go through this transition period. I have beautiful pictures in my mind regarding my future life here, here in the United States. I know I will never want to leave this carefree place, with so much freedom to do anything I want. I just love it here.

But, life is different from dream. Yes, these are my dream life. 'MY' dream life. I can't live with me only. My loved ones are all in Malaysia. A dream life is not complete without my loved ones with me. Surprisingly, at the moment when I decided to go home, a streak of undescribable feeling arose. It's like the falling pieces of a broken heart magically becomes a whole again. All of a sudden, I realized that home is really where the heart belongs.

I can see myself clearer planning from this path that I have chosen. Many people will be happy for me, I strongly know that. Life chosen, be it good or bad, I am going to live with it. I know that my loved ones will always be there to support me. Please give me blessings, lotsa blessings! I would really appreciate.

America, I'll be Back!!!

~xoxo~

Shopping~~~

2009-06-08T23:28:00.004-05:00

Urghh...I can't remember when is the last time that I actually do shopping for my closet. Anyway, my closet probably wouldn't allow anymore 'intruders' since there really isn't much space left. Thinking of the fact that we are going to move to a one bedroom apartment in the coming August, one bedroom meaning there will only be one closet for the two of us. NO....!!! Contract signed and yet I haven't figure out a way to allocate enough space for our clothing and shoes. For this reason I have been prohibiting myself to bring home with more stuffs, stuffs!!!Be it be clothes, shoes, home decors, or even a puppy (aw...). Okay, and everyone knows how a drug addict is like. Can't Live Without It!!!! And so, I have been window shopping online, and I said online. Not even a brick-and-mortar shop (well, I still don't trust my self-control ability yet, HA...)!!

By devoting myself entirely to the online fashion world, I started out with US common fashion brands like Abercrombie & Fitch, Hollister co, Gap, American Eagle, Victoria Secret, Express, Forever 21, and new favourite Charlotte Russe. And, apparently they are not enough to satisfy my shopping thirst. So, I digged more and......dah dan!!!

女人我最大 http://pink-boutique.blogspot.com/

Blingbling http://www.blingbling2u.net/blingbling2u/default.aspx

LuvBeauty http://profiles.friendster.com/103947431

Juz_Shop http://profiles.friendster.com/86474456

LuluBear http://www.lulubear.com.my/lulubear/default.aspx

FASHIONIST.SHOP http://profiles.friendster.com/91389479

小红帽店铺http://profiles.friendster.com/94883938

Jordeen Fashion http://www.jordeen.com/jordeen/default.aspx

Hottest Dream http://www.hottestdream.com/hottestdream/default.aspx

Sam Fashion http://profiles.friendster.com/81760055

Soulclose http://profiles.friendster.com/78180362

One piece closet http://profiles.friendster.com/68847258

Girls street http://profiles.friendster.com/102268053

Sakura boutique http://profiles.friendster.com/85082755

Lollipop http://profiles.friendster.com/100865905

My Lingerie Home http://profiles.friendster.com/97890429

Rainbow Boutique http://profiles.friendster.com/98035865

Sister Secrets http://profiles.friendster.com/84582717

Momo Boutique http://profiles.friendster.com/95788868

Momoka http://profiles.friendster.com/97138687

BeautieQQ http://www.beautieqq.com/beautieqq/default.aspx

See...I never lie about my hobby---shopping, since young. *wink*

And so, these are all the fashion website that are hitting Malaysia ladies!! I am so glad that I am not in Malaysia right now. Or else...let's not talk about this. LoL...
Well, the websites above have many similarities in the products they offer. I think the style and the price of the clothings are so much more attractive than those in the United States. But I am being a little skeptical about the quality of their products, I am not sure!!!

So you know what I do in my free time now...hahaha...

Good Night!!

~xoxo~

Teeth Whitening

2009-06-08T10:24:00.000-05:00

It's a Monday!!!! It's the beginning of another week, it's cool outside, the gloomy weather is very deactivating. Nevertheless, I am not upset with any of these. I think I am actually enjoying weekdays more than weekend now. I feel more occupied in the weekdays, and i am always looking forward to my swimming time. :)...

Well, few days ago, my friend was chatting with me in MSN, and she realized that there's something different in my profile picture. My very white teeth it is!!!

Two months ago, I noticed that my teeth are getting yellowish. All my smiling pictures are no longer captivating. In fact, I felt embarrassed to take smiling pictures or closed-up pictures with the focus on my face. I quickly went online and tried to search for remedy. After going through all kinds of product reviews and expert recommendations, I decided to buy Crest Whitestrips Pro Effects. The MSRP of this product is $39.99, and I bought in Wal-Mart, which cost me $34.99.

Here's the product:

So, I wear it for 30 minutes twice a day. It's pretty easy as you just have to peel the strips and apply to your teeth. In a foil pouch, there are upper strip and lower strip. I can wear it while checking emails or reading books or even talk on the phone (but not very recommended..hehe).

One thing that needs to be mentioned here is that DO NOT wear the strips immediately after you brush your teeth. Doing so will cause stinging pain on your enamel, and white patch will form on the pain area of the enamel (however, the white patches will disappear after few hours).

Here's the result of the whitening strips:

Amazing!!!! Also, this product is result guaranteed!!! If you think you are not very satisfied with the result, you just have to send the UPC barcode of your product and your purchase receipt along with your name and mailing address (within 60 days of purchase) to the company to get FULL REFUND. Good Deal!!!

Happy Monday!!!

~xoxo~

My New Favourite- Aspirin Mask

2009-06-07T10:46:00.000-05:00

Okey so, being a jobless graduant right now, my summer daily life, apart from swimming and gym every single day, is giving too much free time for me to kill. Of course, I spend a considerate amount of time hunting for job openings online. Other than that, I am overdosing myself with A LOT of readings. I read all kinds of stuff. And so, I would like to share some of the useful information I got from my online readings.

Here, I have my new favourite- aspirin mask. So, I was idling in YouTube, and I found this make up tutorial from this lady called Ricebunny. She is pretty, smart, and so talented. I decided to look into more about her, and I found her beauty blog. She has tons of beauty information and make up tutorials. Of course, with her already-pretty-shape-of-face, anything that put on her face is going to look nice. I guess there should be room for reasonable thinking if one were to read her beauty tips.

Anyway, here there is this aspirin mask that she introduced in her blog that caught my attention. According to Ricebunny, this mask gives beautiful healthy skin. It clears acne and other skin problems. It is a very long article.

To summarize it, use two tablets of uncoated aspirin and dissolve them in less than a table spoon of water (sprinkle VERY little water). Add 2 squirts of honey (just the regular honey you spread on your pancake) and Mix it. Apply on your face, and leave for 10 minutes.

Yes, it's so simple. I tried it last night, for the first time. The instant result that I saw was that my face does feel smoother and clearer. The mask did exfoliate my skin and remove dirt and dead skin. I am feeling pretty confident with this mask, but for the actual result, I would have to use it for another week or so before I can assure you. I am hoping that this formula will work great as this is like the cheapest mask one can DIY. I bought the aspirin for 99 cents for 100 tablets, and the honey in a big bottle will not exceed $2. Oh yea, one drawback of this mask is that your skin will be more susceptible to sun. SPF moisturizer with UVA and UVB is a MUST especially when going outdoor!!!

Well well, I am sharing this purely because I think this is a very good knowledge of skincare.
The original, more detailed explanation can be found at http://ricebunny.xanga.com/567728185/aspririn--beautiful-skin/.

Till then, ~xoxo~

A New Life

2009-06-06T17:57:00.000-05:00

Wee~~~a brand new blog for me!! I used to be a blogger, a blogger in Friendster. I love my blogs there, they signifies every moment of me growing up, and everyday of my life. I ditched my Friendster blog shortly after I came to United States (a.k.a my transformation period). Yes, I do changed a lot! The change is so substantial that I failed to deny in any ways. Anyway, a few days ago, I was reading my old posts on my Friendster blog, and that brought up lotsa memories. I read all of the friends' comments too, and I felt bad for just leaving my blog like that. I just realized that I had actually built up a network of readers for my blog, who are keen to know me more, who are concern about my everything, and most of all, who are the people that I called 'friends'. Ever since I stop blogging there, they never hear from me anymore, my life, my stories, my everythings seemed to be faded away. I am Sorry for those who used to enjoy reading my blog, really Sorry!!!

Well, now, a shift to new blog. I'll continue posting about my everything. The New ME!!! A little updating from me:

-I graduated with a Bachelor degree, double majoring in Accounting and Finance from Iowa State University on May 9, 2009.
-I am currently actively seeking a job, that I like, hopefully.
-I CAN swim already!!!
-I am reading Twilight 3rd book- Eclipse everyday. Gosh, such a GOOD book!!!
-and of course, I am still deeply in love with my 11, Edwin Shim. Our 39th-Month Anniversary just past, and there'll be more to come. lol...

all right, to be continued......

~xoxo~